It's weird to think about how long it's been since we where on the Fanwalk back in 2008, but there are a bunch of us thats still at it. Being caught up in this adulting thing, it's easy to loose track of time.
I still make plans to go to the EMAs and other Fanwalk renunions and stuff like that, but it's hard to really save up that money and go for it.
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| You can like see me on the right with my antique top hat. |
It's easy to see that the spirit still lives on, and I do my best to stay in touch with the Fanwalkers on social media, and it's always a good feeling to see how they are doing. It seems some of them are living that dream still, like going to all the big concerts, moving up in the industry and keeping up with EMAs.
I know that a big part of it is keeping up the image, and with war and economic collapse going on in Europe, the struggle is real on all of us.
It's kind of ironic that so many see me as this rich person coming from a rich country, because I was able to go so far with my music, but the other side of that is starving, living on the street and making huge sacrifices to record an album, that didn't ever get released, and being stuck with a debt I could never pay.
Most people just saw the the upside, maybe listened in on it or even bought a CD, but the industry changed, and I just quit.
Back in 2019 I did my last show in my hometown and announced that I would leave that all behind, as I started working as a weldor and the magic of it was drained 3 times over.
As the blog name, I really got way to famous, but it really sucks to be on the cover of newspapers and all over TV, when you can't even afford to eat or pay rent. It's suppose to be like a good thing, and not like a huge problem for family and friends, like my father still insists that I'm this rich superstar and he is pissed because he haven't gotten a Ferrari yet. Like I'm building a car for myself from scraps just for fun...
No, it's like that adulting thing, where it just don't make any sense to spend 10.000€ on that magic dream that don't really pay off, or didn't for me anyway. It sure was fun, but I'm at a different place now. To get some out of my experience, I help out other musicians, and I still love going to big shows and helping out with some mastering. It's not work, it's something I do to keep that magic in my life. Like that magic that never happened for me, is still out there, but experiencing it from a far, is better than not at all.
I just read the other day about the new Walkman, and that brings it all back. I still use my W760i, and even if I have rebuilt it a few times, it's the same phone, with all those memories intact. Just new display and bottons.
It's not like I don't got a modern phone, I just picked up the new Xperia 10 IV, but I'm going to have downpayments on that thing for 2 years. My Xperia Performance is still holding out, and Z1 and Z1 compact might not run all the modern apps, but they are perfect to use on work, as I can swap displays on them in a jiffy now, and they are real Walkmans, so perfect for playing music on.
Being a part of the BETA testing for Walkman back in the days, it really made me sad when they announced that they where shutting it down, and no longer would be making phones that where focusing on playing music. Even if the new Walkmans are dedicated music players, I might get one instead of carrying an extra phone or two around.
To kind of get to the point about this, I have been on a bunch of concerts and festivals after I stopped being so public on social media. I think maybe it's time I just start posting more from those things, as even if it's nice to keep the memories for myself, I always love to share it with you guys to keep that Fanwalk spirit alive.
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